Egoistic thought of mine

Just got a story about love
How peoples hold on rubber rope for a long time.
Hanging.
How peoples let old shadow stays in their day. Stuck in their mind.
How peoples hurt theirselves with their own feeling.
How peoples want to see someone who loved by them get happiness. Someday.
But they still put their hope, they belong in it.
How people cross their heart, they will always wait for someone, who already steps out from their lives. Till forever.
How peoples forget to move.
How peoples get stabbed by time
Wait for uncertain things
Because of love

I just wonder. If I could.
I would stop the time and run back to several years ago.
3 years i spent with million secenes
Only when God takes all of my memories so it can be dissapear from my mind.

10 months with fcking end.
Drying my tears and losing my weight.
And I can't escape more.
I change.
Love changes my personality
Not
I change my personality because of love

But it feels numb now.
End.
Finish.
Over.
There's no more feeling for them
Because with my realistic sight,
I know my life doesn't need anyone who ever left and stepped on my heart.
Maybe I deserve better
Except
When God has the opposite plan.
To combine my future and my past haha I hope no -_-

I'm tired begging for their glance.
Why should I think deeply about them?
Are they the right person for me who will stay with me till the end of the time?
Don't make someone become a guarantee.
Let God does.
Believe on God plans, not their smiles.

I know
My heart hurts. But my brain helps it to face the reality /halaaah/
I should realize
They are leaving with their own reason.
Thanks to them who already gave good lessons and sweet memories.
And I have other things that I should take care.
Now I have a better life with much smiles and laughs with peoples around me.

Sorry for talking like an expert.
But, don't make any commitment or promise for long lasting period.
Before you know what will happen tomorrow
Everything can changes as fast as you blink your eyes.

include all of my opinion above.

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Just be grateful and thankful to God for everything.
Live your life now.
Not yesterday.
To prepare for your tomorrow.

And I'm busy enjoying what God already gave me now.
Yeah you, my present tense.

I'll play the Romeo, you play the Juliet.
The sun won't set, until you appear.
-of mice and men