Heamicu

Just like a dark sky.
Who needs a billion sparkling stars around her.
And also a moon.
A softly and lovely moonlight
To accompany her spend the whole night.

:)

Failed investigation

Statement:
Kacamata aku ilang.
Tadi mau shalat jadi ditarok di atas tempat wudhu. Terus pas naik keatas baru inget kalo lupa diambil dan rencananya abis shalat baru mau diambil. Gaktaunya pas udah selese, aku cek dibawah udah ga ada lagi :(

Tanggapan:
-Yang standar:
"Udah nanya satpam? Udah cek lagi? Di tas? Di kamar mandi? Di tempat mukenah ada ga? Tadi kamu sama siapa? Tanya anak anak yg di mushala deh atau di tempat pingpong"
Jawab:
"Ga ada men, aku udah bolak balik sampe 7 kali kayak sa'i"

"Kai berarti kamu tuh terlalu tawakal, percaya sama Tuhan dan milih shalat dulu baru ambil kacamata"
-_-

-Tanggapan mulai abnormal ketika aku sudah lelah mencari:
"Kalo kau diem bae cak ini cakmano nak ketemu. Uji kau amen kito ketawo ketawo cak ini kacamata kau pacak muncul dewek dari langit?"
"Cubo cek ado dak yg masuki kacamata kau dalem bak tempat wudhu itu kai."
"Atau kau cek tanah tanah itu kai mungkin la tekubur kacamata kau disitu."
"Cubo kau jingok kacamata faqih caknyo la berubah, kau cek dulu bae kalu itu punyo kau tapi la di pilox oleh dio"
-_-

"Jangan jangan ketinggalan di kosan kai"
"Jangan jangan emang daritadi kau dateng idak pake kacamata kai."
"Jangan jangan selama ini kau tuh emang dak bekacamata kai."
"Jangan jangan sugesti kau bae kalo mato kau pacak jingok jelas."
"Jangan jangan selama ini akal akalan kau bae kai tentang kacamata tuh, emang dak katek dari awal"

-________-

Bitter and sweet life

Kenangan itu kayak coklat.
Coba ada yang tau analoginya gimana? :)

Coklat itu enak dan rasanya bikin seneng. Apalagi kalo dikasi orang =))
Tapi gak semua coklat itu manis kan?
Ada coklat hitam yang pahit.
Bahkan kata orang orang, coklat hitam itu yang bagus buat kesehatan.

Sama kayak kenangan
Ada kenangan manis ada kenangan buruk yg pahit
Mungkin aja kenangan buruk yang terjadi itu bisa jadi pelajaran yang bikin kita lebih baik.
Nikmatin aja semua kenangan kayak kita nikmatin coklat.
Ada yang manis ada yang pahit.
Ada yang dikit ada yang banyak.
Lumayan kan bisa bikin berat badan nambah /yang ini kesenangan pribadi sih/ =))

-Ngesok bijak hari ini disponsori oleh: dibawain oleh-oleh coklat dan semuanya coklat item yang pahit maksimal. Alhasil sekarang coklatnya dipotong potong dan dikasi susu kental manis putih -_-

Just enjoy the show

Tenggelamnya Kapal Van der Wijk.

Nontonnya ga sedih. ga nangis padahal kata orang ini sangat pilu.

karena selama nonton:

banyak mikir, banyak keinget macem-macem, banyak ngegalau, banyak ngerasa.

Trapped in past tense and afraid to deal with it
Not mine. Just see with 3nd person's perspective

when my heart asks and looks for and stays

I'm invited then I sit nicely

Tied with rope

Watching every scenes in silent

Wait for the time when I can run and touch.

watcher or player?

Let my hearts win
Then it overreacts
Let my brain laughs
Then it over thinks

kesel sama hayati yang gak tau malu

kadang seneng sama zainuddin yang bisa move on. walau ujungnya bikin kesel soalnya dia tetep balik balik lagi. tapi move on lagi

sumpah filmnya agak nyambung sama post di  blog aku yang sebelum ini.

masih ngerasa film itu bukan cerita ciptaan Tuhan. 

Still being too egoistic and realistic

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ehia :))

Herjunot Ali itu setelah diliat liat mirip sama Joseph Gorden-Levitt

pantes.

pantes.

Pengkhianat profesi [edited]

Dec 24th 2013
Gara gara abis skill lab dan tutornya pinter dengan wawasan luas
Mau deh cepet cepet jadi dokter
Mau yang anamnesis. Karena kalo anamnesis yang baik bisa dapet semua keluhan tanpa pemeriksaan lain. Bisa langsung tau penyakitnya dengan jelas.
Suka aja nanya nanya orang dan dengerin ceritanya.

Ya kalo gini mungkin lebih bagus jadi psikolog sih yaaa

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Dec 23rd 2013
The next doctor who afraid to go to the doctor, being interviewed by google and never trust medicine to heal the illness.

Jadi dukun aja kaliya ini -_-

Egoistic thought of mine

Just got a story about love
How peoples hold on rubber rope for a long time.
Hanging.
How peoples let old shadow stays in their day. Stuck in their mind.
How peoples hurt theirselves with their own feeling.
How peoples want to see someone who loved by them get happiness. Someday.
But they still put their hope, they belong in it.
How people cross their heart, they will always wait for someone, who already steps out from their lives. Till forever.
How peoples forget to move.
How peoples get stabbed by time
Wait for uncertain things
Because of love

I just wonder. If I could.
I would stop the time and run back to several years ago.
3 years i spent with million secenes
Only when God takes all of my memories so it can be dissapear from my mind.

10 months with fcking end.
Drying my tears and losing my weight.
And I can't escape more.
I change.
Love changes my personality
Not
I change my personality because of love

But it feels numb now.
End.
Finish.
Over.
There's no more feeling for them
Because with my realistic sight,
I know my life doesn't need anyone who ever left and stepped on my heart.
Maybe I deserve better
Except
When God has the opposite plan.
To combine my future and my past haha I hope no -_-

I'm tired begging for their glance.
Why should I think deeply about them?
Are they the right person for me who will stay with me till the end of the time?
Don't make someone become a guarantee.
Let God does.
Believe on God plans, not their smiles.

I know
My heart hurts. But my brain helps it to face the reality /halaaah/
I should realize
They are leaving with their own reason.
Thanks to them who already gave good lessons and sweet memories.
And I have other things that I should take care.
Now I have a better life with much smiles and laughs with peoples around me.

Sorry for talking like an expert.
But, don't make any commitment or promise for long lasting period.
Before you know what will happen tomorrow
Everything can changes as fast as you blink your eyes.

include all of my opinion above.

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Just be grateful and thankful to God for everything.
Live your life now.
Not yesterday.
To prepare for your tomorrow.

And I'm busy enjoying what God already gave me now.
Yeah you, my present tense.

I'll play the Romeo, you play the Juliet.
The sun won't set, until you appear.
-of mice and men

Status: mahasiswa

Jadi ceritanya pas tahun baruan, orang orang terdekat ud rencana mau liburan dan aku bakal sendirian di palembang.
Kuliah men. Jadwal. Baru dikasih libur setelah semua instansi udah kembali bertugas -_-

Tante: mbak sudah pesen tiket?
Mbak: sudah kok te jadi jam 9 malem berangkat tgl 30
Tante: hahaha oke. Ini tinggal kiki aja sendirian nanti pas tahun baru
Kiki: hiks iya tante mau gimana lagi kan kuliah.
Mbak: pokoknya ki kalo nanti liburan langsung aja ke jakarta ya ketempat papa. Nanti aku temenin deh pas kamu disana
Kiki: iya un.
Mbak: nanti kita belanja deh ya jalan jalan disana
Kiki: iya un
Mbak: sekalian aja nah nanti kuajak ke dufan. Mau gaaak? Kapan coba kamu terakhir ke dufan?
Kiki: ...

Bingung mau seneng atau sedih.
Miris.

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Mbak: ki besok kamu masuk jam berapa?
Kiki: kayak biasa un jam 7.30 paling
Mbak: kapanlah gitu ya kalo kamu kutanya besok masuk jam berapa, terus kamu jawabnya "besok nggak kuliah un"
Kiki: ...

MAUNYA JUGA GITUUUU!!!
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Yah mau bagaimana lagi hiks :"))
Kuliah yang bener ya ki. Ayo belajar yang rajin.
Supaya besok besok di tahun mendatang, penyakit Systemic Lupus Erythematosus sudah bisa disembuhkan.

.... kayak sel epitel.

Kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel
Kesel
Kesel.
Kesel!

Kesel sama sore ini
Kesel banget soalnya banyak ngebuangin waktu, dengan penuh kekesalan
Kesel soalnya malem ini bukannya tinggal tidur aja tp banyak yg mau dikerjain
Kalo ud kesel jadi capek kan.

Hah.
Sampe semua rasanya bikin makin kesel
Kesel dapet analisis masalah ga sesuai sama yg dibilang
Sampe keinget orang orang yang ngeselin dan makin kesel sendiri

Dan hari ini aku mengumpat hujan
Dan hari ini aku mencaci malam
Dan hari ini aku membenci kesendirian

Haaaaah. Ngecek tanggal
Jangan jangan emang lagi waktu dimana perasaan udah kayak sel epitel. Labil.

At a glance: playlist.

Mau vakum ngegalau.
Vakum memperhatikan semua lirik lirik lagu rock yang dalem bikin mikir ga berkesudahan

Lagi seneng aja nyari lagu easy listening yang cocok buat moodbooster dan bikin senyum senyum sendiri.

Contohnya, bruno mars - treasure. Ini lagunya aku pikir dari jaman kapan. Tapi ternyata emang lagu baru dengan tema hippie haha
Terus ga ada matinya, paramore - still into you. Udah dari berbulan bulan yang lalu tapi gapernah bosen dengernya. Atau nonton mv nya yang supercute.
Lagu Cher Lloyd - I wish. Lagu cewe yang desperate soalnya cowok yang dia suka, suka sama cewe lain yg lebih perfect =))
Lagu indonesia ada juga deh
Nidji - rahasia hati
Petra - mine
Kemaren ketemu lagi lagu tapi lupa judulnya apa -_-

Dan satulagi. Sekali ngedenger langsung suka.

The Vamps - Can We Dance

*I talk a lot of shit when I'm drinking, baby,
I'm known to go a little too fast.
Don't mind all my friends, I know they're all crazy,
But they're the only friends that I have.
I know I don't know you,
But I'd like to skip the small talk and romance, girl.
That's all I have to say so, baby, can we dance?

Here we go again, another drink I'm caving in,
And stupid words keep falling from my mouth.
You know that I mean well,
My hands were made for somewhere else.
Your eyes are doing naughty butterflies

Oh, oh, one more drink and I should go,
Oh, oh, but maybe she might like me though.
Oh, oh, I just can't think of what to say,
Should I go, should I stay?
Just can't let her slip away.

Back to *

I was nearly in, but then came the pushy friend,
Killed the vibe and took my perfect ten away.
You know I need you, girl,
My heart's not made for someone else.
So save me here 'cause I can barely stand.

Oh, oh, one more drink and I should go,
Oh, oh, but maybe she might like me though.
Oh, oh, I can't take this any more,
Should I stay? Should I go?
It just can lead back to her door.
I talk a lot of shit when I'm drinking, baby,
I'm known to go a little too fast.
Don't mind all my friends, I know they're all crazy,
But they're the only friends that I have.
I know I don't know you,
But I'd like to skip the small talk and romance, girl.
That's all I have to say so, baby, can we dance?

I've been a bad, bad boy
Whispering rude things in her ear,
Please say she'll break,
Please say she'll change
Her mind and bring me back to her place.

Back to *

I talk a lot of shit when I'm drinking, baby,
I'm known to go a little too fast (a little too fast)
Don't mind all my friends, I know they're all crazy,
But they're the only friends that I have.
I know I don't know you,
But I'd like to skip the small talk and romance, girl.
That's all I have to say so, baby, can we dance?

amateur philosopher

If your heart decides to fall for someone, you should take a risk to have a million random feelings and absurd thinking.
About you, and someone over there.

Consequence of falling in love

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*million random feelings: Actually it can be happiness, or sadness. Or both of them.

but, one sided opinion:
"So don't fall in love, there's just too much risk" - Mayday Parade (Terrible Things)
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Wordplay

merasa ditusuk oleh kata kata dan intonasi suara

merasa dipeluk oleh tatapan dan perhatian.
:)

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Why you're not left? Because you're right.

when music and literature meets by art and creativity =)

I'm just The Monster with the Demons inside. Misguided Ghost who Hate To See Your Heart Break. You can Hate Me, but will you let me Say Something?
you're my Treasure and shining just like a Neon Light
Please Wake Me Up because i will Stay The Night
Will you be my Soldier so we can Counting Stars together and feel the Changing Of The Season, between the Perfume of Timber.
I Wish everything Can't Hold Us

but i know The Lousy Truth, i'm swinging on this Wrecking Ball
i Fall Into The Sky without the Parachute
this is So Blue Now, just let me sleep and sing me sweet Lullabies
i'm just looking for Clarity

Holy Grail, This Is Gospel
my Summertime Sadness.
just a little part in the Story Of My Life

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The (maybe-we-can-say) poem consist of some title of songs. They're the new playlists on my phone.

and MOST of them are the new top songs. Hits on autumn-winter 2013. you can check it on Billboard.

HAHA idk why but they have the same type of situation -_-

akhir tahun kok musisi pada galau :))

The Passenger says "Let Her Go", Avril says "Let Me Go" and Linkin Park shouts "I'll Be Gone"

end of 2013

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thanks for the inspiration

Eminem ft. Rihanna, Imagine Dragon, Paramore, Blue October, A Great Big World, Bruno Mars, Demi Lovato, Avicii, Zedd, Samantha Jade, One Republic, Two Door Cinema Club, Britney, Pitbull ft. Kesha, Cher Llyod, Macklemore, NeverShoutNever, Miley Cyrus/ Lifehouse, Ellie Goulding, Lawson, Akon, All Time Low, Jay Z ft. JT, Panic At The Disco, Lana Del Rey, One Direction.

:)

Love song intolerance

December 8th 2013
Lagi di suatu tempat makan dan lagi keplay lagu-lagu galau ga abis abis
Akhir akhir ini suka lucu dengerin lagu.
Suka ngakak terutama lagu cinta.
Related to my recent post 'Dia si pemberi harapan palsu saat metronomku tidak sampai 70'

Semua lagu galau itu banyak slow. Dan dibawah moderate. Berarti dibawah 70 ketukannya biasanya.

Haha kayak gak selesai selesai orang bikin lagu tentang patah hati. Tentang rasa terdalam yang disakiti. Cak nak mati besok. Kalo jodoh ga kemana kan, kalo kalian ga jodoh ya minta aja dia dijodohin sama orang gila :)

Tapi suka kesel juga kalo denger lagu yang ngerasa wah cinta itu indah serasa terbang ke surga lupa dunia. Wkwk bener sih, tapi itu php karena cinta juga sebenernya ga seheboh dan seindah itu hahaha.
Lagi aga kebal perasaan dan mikir realistis. Sekarang salah siapa?
Salah aku yang lagi sensi sama lovesong kaliya wkwk

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Lagu cinta melulu, kita memang benar benar melayu, suka mendayu dayu - Efek Rumah Kaca

everything happens for a reason

walau king for a day kudedikasikan untukmu
dan honestly kuteriakkan di telingamu.
entahlah harus berapa lagu yang harus aku list disini.

tapi semua yang terjadi memang pasti ada hikmahnya
seburuk buruknya masa lalu yang pernah ada
dan seberapa besar penyesalan yang dirasa

you're a lesson
not only about the meeting of 3 generations
but also both night and thunder ;)
HAHA

Terima kasih.
cukup.

tanpa mengetuk kau pun bisa memahami

bagaimana bila ini kuanggap rumah tanpa ventilasi
bagaimana bila tidak sedikitpun sinar mentari tega menyentuh pondasi
bagaimana bila pintu pun tak ada
bagaimana bila aku taruh rumah ini di tengah hutan belantara

namun ia tetap bernafas
biasanya setiap hari
tergantung seberapa penting ia ingin bergerak bebas

aku biarkan seorang pemburu bersandar pada dindingnya
mungkin ia sudah mulai mengenalinya
ketika beliau menemukannya dalam keadaan lelah
ketika beliau merasakan nafas dari celah yang basah
biasanya setiap hari
karena bila beliau tidak ada, ia sedikit mencari
mungkin beliau hanya sedikit sering bertanya,
"ini apa?" :)

ini memang bukan rumah terbuka
bukan untuk yang melihat dengan sebelah mata
bukan untuk orang yang suka merasa rasa
bukan untuk yang tidak diundang
tetapi yang suka datang
biasanya setiap hari

ketika pepohonan yang bisu terus bergerak
mengawasi walau mungkin tidak peduli dan tidak mengerti.

ne iteretur

ekstrak amygdala ! ad.lib ad.us.prop
ekstrak area broca ! s.d.d a.n.
m.f.l.a
-------------------------RRD

cito!
ad.p.dolen d.s.s.ven u.c

n.i.

Balada bahasa

"Kita nih perasaan susah ya ki, kalo ke keluarga papa di solo, kita ga ngerti soalnya pake bahasa jawa. Kalo ke keluarga ibu, gak ngerti soalnya pake bahasa pagaralam. Kalo ke keluarganya tante, gak ngerti soalnya pake bahasa padang"
- Mbak Nurul, yang sekarang udah gaul pake bahasa jakarta.

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Sementara seorang rizkia akan selalu menjadi anak sumatera selatan.
"Mbak kiki gara-gara dari kecil di palembang sekarang kalo ngomong biasa pun tetep logat palembang..."
-Eyang

bahasa indonesia logat palembang tuh kayakmana ._.

Well-planned please. bismillah. Be better. amin

Too much listening to music gives so much influence to set the main point of this plot

aku sibuk menunduk saat tetesan air menyentuh kepalaku
serta merta aku mendongak
mulai berpikir dan seluruh tubuhku menjadi basah
sebentar lagi kau mendekatkanku ke langit
karena langit akan semakin gelap diselimuti awan

"Jangan terus bersedih, langit. Aku akan tetap berdiri disini" batinku
Yang seharusnya aku katakan nanti, dikala aku sudah mengambil payung.

sampai aku tersadar
ini semusim tanpa prediksi
bahwa di kala matahari sudah bersinar terik
aku akan membutuhkan parasut

dan dikala aku lupa
mungkin aku harus kembali menunduk
walau aku tetap berjalan dalam hujan

namun jangan biarkan musim menghapus jejak
walaupun aku tau mungkin aku menapak pada lumpur hidup.
yang bisu pikiran

Dia si pemberi harapan palsu disaat metronomku tidak sampai 70

I stuck on something that can hurt myself

listening to music

listening to some certain songs.

music has its own feeling

music can increase your motivation

music can make you feel comfortable

it can hugs you.

music shows you about beautiful imaginations

music can express your feeling which can't be spoken by mouth

makes you feel safe because you're not alone

too much wonderful things explained by a simple song

but don't you ever think?

music can stab you straightly on your heart

seems like it laughs on your mistakes.

music brings you so much expectations

makes you depressed when you can't reach it.

a billion random thoughts and questions appears in your mind. over think.

music can tears your brain when you listen to it. 

'cause it keeps your memories.

'cause it keeps your stories.

music can brings you to the lowest level of your mind

forces you to drown on its stream.

but when someday you find this world is too cruel to you.

music is the only thing which can heal your soul.

dia.
musik yang mempunyai unsur adiktif