dead and gone

i just wanna go home

i just want to sleep in my bed

i just want to hear my mom yells at me

i just want to giggle with my siblings

i just want to plan my future with my dad

i just want to have a family

a place to sheltered

to shares everything

to tells everything

to motivates me

to makes me feel that i'm not alone

---------------------------------------------------
bring them back, please

or at least makes me feel it again

People keep telling me wah kok ga bilang kai wah kok ga cerita wah wah wah ect ect
About everything

So?
You never ask me

While
Everytime when we met,
You keep talking and im just listening
About your life

Okay
I wont tell if you dont ask
Im not a drama queen
Who tells eveything to the world.

Im fine
I have no hard feelings

I just dont want to be the one to be blamed in this situation.

You make me laugh when i dont even want to smile

I don't wanna say goodnight
The city comes alive, when we're together
Why can't "wednesday" last forever
I don't wanna say goodnight

All time low - for baltimore

5 april 2017

Sate padang ati gajih
Mie tek tek sambel tekwan
Besok ujian

5 mawar merah ditengah tawa

again, i told ya

people will start to write something
to express her feelings

when she's falling in love
or falling apart

pengalih perhatian

trully, im afraid of trusting someone
putting  my expectation to someone
again
because i dont even know, are you the right one.
and i havent believe in myself yet.

im a chaos
and you dont know me yet
and you dont even ask me

but trully, i really enjoyed the time we spent together
your voice
and laugh
sweet distraction of any kind of mess in my life.

"So suddenly I'm in love with a strangerI can't believe she's mine
Now all I see is you with fresh eyes, fresh eyes"
(Andy Grammer - Fresh Eyes)

i just hope that you're not just a chapter, but the complement of my whole book

and i just hope that im good enough for you.

fate or fake

"Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut"

(All Time Low - Remembering Sunday)

i told you,
you are the best real-happening imaginations i ever set in my mind
the best scenario
the greatest background
the greatest characteristic
the greatest similarity

closely to the perfect fulfillment of my pray to God.
you.

now i realize that
i start having expectations to people
i start put my emotions to other
your mood suddenly affects mine

you.
yes. you

is that a good news or bad news?
is that a great beginning of happiness or just starting a worst ending?

fifty fairly love

Once I loved people equally

Maybe we were in love, equally

But someday without any words, love wasn’t fit to us anymore then it just went away

You became bitter

Left me with empty feeling, I had no idea of loving someone equally.

Twice I loved people

Unequally for me

I’ve been so over protecting of what’s mine

And they just went away

Left me with the questions o f loving someone equally

And when I got tired of love

Someone told me he loved me

And im not loving him equally

Ended with hurting each other feelings

Because I know you love yourself more than you love me

Then we hate each other equally

Then when the time comes

When I met you

Should we start to fall in love

Or we just end up with falling apart

To much fear

Of having no equality in love