In a steady stage afraid to face the future.
Looking for any way to go back to the past.
I want to start all over again and fix all of my mistakes.
If only i can
About love, about study, about situations. About life.
God i just want to be happy
Why i feel so insecure right now
Why i should be so overthink. Why i should think too much. Feel
too much. Afraid too much.
Afraid to hurt people, afraid to do anythng, afraid of
society’s perception, afraid to make people hate me
Afraid to be left and lonely.
I’m underestimating myself.
God i just want to be happy
Why i can’t find anything to hang
Any home to live
Any place to go back and take a rest
Any love to feel
Why i feel so unwanted
Why i can't feel the same way with people who loves me so much
Yap. Can’t stop blaming myself again and again.
And God i just want to be happy
Even i have someone now
I’m afraid of affection or addiction
I’m afraid with feeling
I hate expecting something from someone.
And afraid to feel jealousy. Again.
Because i know it hurts
I lost my self.
Really lost the soul inside.
Tuhan, yang kali inilah, jangan turuti prasangka umatMu :(
Tuhan, bersihkan hatiku
Tuhan, tenangkan.
Bismillah.
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