Tuesday, November 10, 2020

Hello

 Omg it’s officially 1 year since the last time im here

Sometimes im looking back to the old times when i have nothing but anxiety

Laughing of my old stupidities.

Everything changes, much better, with different problem and condition, but still dealing with insecurities

Im in the best version of myself

Having a job, staying at home, with relatives (the best way to reduce my overthinking mind-not staying alone)

Having a relationship with the man with future and great mind. Even he’s not on my side but he always on his phone-for me.

Not as empty as the old me. 

Havent try to go fron the comfort zone, but i should improve myself .

Saturday, November 9, 2019

Rupa rupa cerita ketika jaga

Jam 12 dengan cegukan
Jam 12 dengan batuk
Jam 12 dengan sariawan dan minta surat sakit

Kadang mereka mendewakan klinik
"Biasanya sekali berobat disini sembuh"

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Anda mau menyalahkan saya yang baru?
Apa semua kejadian penyakit selalu sama? Mungkin sekarang lebih parah...


Mau cepat sehat, disuruh cek lab tak mau

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"Biasanya di kasih antibiotik.."
"IBU, KALAU ANAK ANAK DEMAM BARU 2 HARI SEMUA DOKTER TIDAK SARANKAN ANTIBIOTIK. NANTI SAAT BESAR ANAKNYA TIDAK BISA DIOBATI DENGAN ANTIBIOTIK LAGI KARENA RESISTEN!"

Anak kejang demam, ibu tak mau anak dirawat karena tidak ada uang dan bpjs.

Si sok tau dengan tangan abses dan tidak mau tindakan tapi mau cepat sembuh

Ibu histeris menangis karena anaknya luka robek. Si anak malah lebih anteng. Ini siapa yang harus kutangani?
Lalu si ibu tidak mau anaknya dijahit. Ok.

24 jam lebih 60 pasien dengan anamnesis ttv pemfis treatment dan edukasi sendiri. Bahkan 5 surat sakit jam 11 malam harus TB BB sendiri.

Si anak entah malu entah malas ditanya diam saja malah galau
Apa kamu hamil diluar nikah? Maaf jadi suuzon. Makanya tolong kooperatif!

Si anak rewel tidak mau diperiksa
Tapi kalau langsung dikasih obat katanya dokternya tidak periksa apa apa
Hah
Maaf
Serba salah
Dan kami memang sudah terlalu pintar dan tahu obat apa yang kalian butuhkan hanya dengan anamnesis saja

Entah apa memang tidak cocok
Atau 10x24 jam memang tidak memanusiakanku lagi

.....dan casanku tertinggal di jakarta!!!
GILAAAAA

Friday, November 1, 2019

It's  no longer be my passion if i should wake up at 1 to handle someone's hiccups

Saturday, September 28, 2019

What's wrong with my self
What's wrong with my self
What's wrong with my self
What's wrong with my self
What's wrong with my self

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

I hope you will always be my sunshine
My forever sunshine
The answer for every heartbreaks and every prayers

I hope you will be the one
My only one
End up together to face this world
And always be my mood

I hope we will be fine
For like forever
Im sick of every pain i hope you're my remedy :"

Thursday, August 22, 2019

No tears left to cry

Oh ya
I almost forgot
That u never recognize if i still have feelings
Dont you?

Wednesday, June 5, 2019

People judge kids who disobey their parents
But how about parents who didnt give the kids their rights?

Friday, May 17, 2019

Kangen puding jagung
Kangen pulang ke jawa
I miss you mom

Gawat kiki kalo sendirian insecurenya gak ada obatnya :(

Drained by loneliness but avoiding the crowds. Life of ambivert

Thursday, May 9, 2019

You know you cant handling your own self
How can u ask other to do it for you?